With only two days left before i leave, i am feeling a lot of things. I have a ton of things to do before i go, and i don't feel quite ready for it, but i am so excited to go that none of that seems to matter. I have been waiting for saturday to come since before Christmas break, and now that it is almost here, this is a little glimpse into how i am feeling:
Nervous - it's always nerve-wracking when you get streched out of your comfort zone. Sri lanka is more than 9,000 miles away from my comfort zone... you can imagine how nervous that would make a person.
Excited - i know God is going to do BIG things this next month, and i am excited to be used by him and to see those things revealed!
Stressed - i have a lot to do before i go... a to-do list that just keeps getting longer. I feel like i am forgetting everything too.......
In pain - for some reason my hip has been hurting really badly for the past 2 days, and i have no idea why. Spiritual warfare? stupidity on my part? a combo of my job + running 20 miles a week + having a bad back that effects the nerves in my hip? I don't know, but it just keeps getting worse. I am limping around everywhere. It really is no fun. Having to pack and work (yeah,... i am still scheduled to work as a server tomorrow night... how is this gonna happen?) and shop and do laundry and pack more and clean and even think is not fun when every little movement hurts. I am really praying that it feels better before i have to get on that plane headed towards hong kong... God can work miracles! I hope he does...
Disbelief - i really can't believe the trip is 2 days away. Really? this is so crazy...
Unsure - am i packing too much? too little? is my luggage under the weight limit? am i gonna be able to limp around the airport alright? am i bringing enough stuff to last me a month (i.e. shampoo)? how hot is it gonna be there? Will i get really sick like i keep hearing people did on last year's trip? Will i die from boredom/exhaustion on the 2 day plane flight to sri lanka? am i gonna be ready in time? will i be able to find covers for my job this weekend?...
Trust - amidst the uncertainty, though, i have complete trust in God. I am so excited to be used by Him! The uncertainty only fuels that trust in God, because when i can't be in control, it really is easiest to trust God to take the reigns. I'm trusting you Jesus.... lead me and use me for your glory!
